“How can I better serve others today?” This question is neatly put in a frame that a dear friend gave to me years ago. I put it in my bathroom so that I would see it every morning (the idea being to do something productive about that question) but if I’m being completely honest I usually just ponder that question when I go to clean the bathroom and have to dust the frame. Sad but true. Lately with my mom being down due to her broken wrist and fractured pelvis I’ve been considering that question a lot more. You see the problem isn’t serving. Or my sweet, amazing mother. Or the people in my life. The problem is me. I don’t have a natural inclination to serve others around me. Frankly I’m selfish and want to be served. You won’t hear me say that out loud but I’m wanting it more than I’d care to admit. I have much to grow in and I’ve realized once again that I can’t do it on my own. I need help. When I’m tired and worn out and my dear mother needs something else or I have to do one more thing for someone I’ve got to receive my strength from something outside of myself. In those moments when my heart is weak I’ve been learning to simply ask Jesus for help. The incredible thing is that he extends more grace to me. Again and again in my weakness I’m finding his strength. When I serve with the mindset that it is really for Jesus my whole attitude changes. It brings a piece of heaven right down into my kitchen or the laundry room. I’m finding that although my heart still has serving struggles at times that there is so much joy in all these seemingly mundane things of life. It is as JOY to serve my family. They have given me so much. They are easy and I’m excited that I get to give back a small part for all they have done for me. When I get to do my mom’s hair I relish that we have the opportunity to laugh and that I get that time to spend with her. Or that I get to bring her another glass of water. Pure bliss. Precious moments. It’s pretty amazing really. I have such a long way to go but I’m seeking out the beauty of right now. The actual living of life. I know that tomorrow I will battle my selfishness but I also know that I can defeat it with God’s strength. And even though I may be exhausted I’m so happy for this time. Learning and growing. Thanks for letting me share about my perfectly imperfect self. 🙂
This picture of me with my niece has nothing to do with this post except it’s a little bit more of me in real life. 😉 And because every post is better with a picture right?
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