{ They are watching you… (DAY 454) }

Dear Lala,

It simultaneously freaked me out and amazed me when I saw the look in your eyes.  The earnestness with which you watched me curl my hair let me know that the switch had happened.  In the past you could care less what I did but in that moment I knew you weren’t just seeing me, you were watching me.  Intently.  I should have realized it was coming.  With there being a 13 year age gap between me and your momma I was the little girl that looked up to my siblings with adoring eyes and studied their every move and longed for them to love on me.  I remember being your age and thinking 18 was old (ha!) and that people in their 20’s (for the most part) had it all together.

Sweet niece I don’t have it all together but when I see your eyes watching me I long to be a godly example for you.  I don’t want to lead you astray or neglect you when you’re around.  You’re an amazing little girl and the fact that you like spending time with me delights my heart.  When you and your brothers look at me I want you to think I’m a fun auntie but more importantly I want you to see someone who cares about your souls.  I want you to see someone who not only prays for you but seeks to lead by example.  I want you to know that Jesus is the most important person in my life.  Because I know your eyes aren’t the only eyes watching.  You just woke me up to the fact.

To all those who read this may you know that your life is an example. One way or another it is a model regardless of whether or not you want it to be.  You can be an influence for good or for destruction.  If you’re young and reading this and look up to older people then you know that sometimes we make mistakes but instead of repeating ours I pray you will learn from them instead.  Really though regardless of age we can all be people who encourage those around us by the way we choose to live.

P.S.  I love you Lala and your brothers so.very.much and I’m honored to be your auntie.  <3  xxx