We measure time here in moments, days, months, and years but someday time will be no more. At the very least it shall be infinite. Eternity is just around the corner. I thought I could get through this post without weeping but I can’t. These words blur together. Today marks one year since my sweet child Hosanna went to be with Jesus. I know he’s dancing there and reveling in all the goodness that heaven has to offer and that makes my heart so happy. Yet, I still miss him. Every day for the past year I have thought about him. Every.single.day.
What a love
I wonder at this. I wonder how you can love someone you’ve never met. I wonder how one life can leave you changed forever. When Hosanna entered heaven he took another piece of my heart there with him. Before Hosanna left this earth I was praying for his healing and the Lord reminded me that Jesus left the 99 for the 1 sheep that was missing. That resonated with my heart. Having 545 kiddos that you love like crazy causes me to see how some might get lost in the bunch. Not with Jesus though. He sees each and every one of us. There is no life that He does not see. There is not one of His children that He does not love.
It gets better!
Your life matters. Maybe you don’t see it but it does. Hosanna never knew how he changed my life but that doesn’t mean he didn’t. He touched my heart and I will never forget him. So linger longer with people, give an extra hug, say I love you so many times you loose count. Cherish those around you because life is short. Live full of life in celebration of the gift we’ve been given. We may be in the shadow lands now but someday oh so soon we will see Jesus face to face and be reunited with those beautiful saints who have gone before us. Today I will dance on earth because I know that soon I shall be dancing with Jesus and Hosanna in heaven. It’s going to be incredible!
“I have come home at last! This is my real country! I belong here. This is the land I have been looking for all my life, though I never knew it till now…Come further up, come further in!” The Last Battle by C.S. Lewis
It is so hard to believe that this amazing little boy passed away only a year ago. He truly changed my life forever last year and I never even met him yet I love him so very much. I cannot wait to meet him in Heaven with the Lord our God. Thank you so very much Elaini for introducing us to this very special little boy last year.
<3 Hosanna
It’s been a long year…. Thanks for loving my little man! <3